Expectations

What do you do, when your own people expect more from you?
"listen", but I've lost you, mess it up and i loose,
i choose,
a life of wealth or overtaken by booze,
Im a problem child, all the patience I've demolished,used,
swearing in a religious home, just pay for your rent,
arguments are nothing new, mum ive told you its all been spent,
but a dream, is all I have left to achieve,
left to be,
cos what I'm told i have to be, has dissolved for me,
I guess I'll just leave,
maskers the name and fame is the vision,
if I mess it up then i guess ill learn the lesson,
each to their own no one should be messing, get the message?,
my life not to be messed with,
my decisions not yours to give,
and what i decide, will be the way i live,
thanks for positively raising me,
but ima be who I am, not asking to praise me,
I'll make it for myself,my path, my way,
ill open new doors,cos its a new day,
"I'm living for now"the motto I say,
so no regrets but still the respects ill pay.